the paradox of illness?

I'm in a strange paradoxical place just now; slowed by the rhythms of breathlessness to a different pace that's closer to becoming my norm now. My head is in a dilemma of how to recover my former state whilst accepting or at least working within my new reality. It's the challenge of managing a long term condition and knowing how and where to push the boundaries of an undiagnosed problem. It's exhausting at one level and at another level, strangely, it's quite compelling; that call just to sink into the soft landscapes of being peaceful.During the time in the wonderful landscape we visit in Bulgaria it was simpler just torespond and to rest. The mountains reach into the soul and soothe it in a way that justinvites a different pace, a different living. The internal and external find an equilibrium that is so very inviting. I found myself thinking of it today as I listened to this podcast by John O'Donohue and Krista Tippett. I'm reflect